It's that time of year......

It's that time of year....when the world falls in love every song you hear seems to say....Merry Christmas!!!

I love that song. Especially this year because something huge has happened. I have fallen in love. Now I know what you are thinking, "Ok right we get it...... you're in love.....you love Kevin.....blah blah blah...." Well, it's not Kevin. I mean I totally LOVE him, but my heart has been stolen by something else. Something wonderful. I didn't think I could feel this way, but I do and I couldn't be happier!

You know in the movies when there is a girl and she is out with her friends chatting and laughing and then something catches her eye and the music swells and suddenly she sees the man of her dreams and it's a huge spectacular moment? Well the exact same thing happened to me this Saturday. It was incredible! Ok before you start to judge me I should probably stop and tell you that it wasn't some handsome stranger that I saw........it was a coat........the most beautiful and perfect coat I have ever seen! It was displayed right in front of the store so I ran over and touched it softly and BAM. I knew. It was the coat of my dreams! I should back track about two weeks earlier................

I really needed a coat so Kevin took me coat shopping. I ended up buying one from Old Navy. It's a fine coat. It is very simple and it looks like something I would buy so I was content, but my heart yearned for something more.......Ok back to the good part.........

We were Christmas shoe shopping with my family (a huge tradition we do every year) and like I was saying, suddenly there it was......the coat of my dreams! I ran into the store and threw off my Old Navy coat and put it on (of course it was the last one and it was just the right size) and wow. I mean WOW. It was perfect! It fit like a glove!.....errr I mean a coat.....you get what I mean ;) I looked at the price tag and it said $128.00. For a split second all my hopes and dreams were shattered. Kevin must have known what I was thinking because he told me something wonderful. All coats were 40% off........ This beautiful perfect coat was only $48.00!!!!!!!!! Aaaaah! Kevin whipped out his card and bought me all the happiness that money can buy! haha! It was mine! The coat was all mine! It was one in a million..........there was nothing like it! I was so giddy! I'm sure the girl at the register thought I was some spoiled little nutcase! I practically skipped out of the store thinking I was the luckiest girl in the world and suddenly Kevin stopped and looked up and said, "Oh look Boo, your mom has the same coat!" 

Yep. My mom was wearing the exact same coat. 

Well, what can I say......great minds think alike! hehe! I'm sure you are all dying to see this amazing coat......unfortunately I am sick and refuse to take a pic of me with it on (even though the coat would probably make me look beautiful even though I am so horribly hideous...) so I took a picture of it on the ground. Doesn't really give you the full affect, but it still works ;) Merry Christmas! May your New Years dreams come true just like mine did :)

Funk.......

I feel like I'm in a funk. Life is weird. I guess it all started when my super awesome brother, Clayton, showed me some music he is working on. It was beautiful. He is very talented and it made me think about how I used to write music. I used to do that with ease. Now I'm lucky if I can play for a few minutes let alone sit and arrange or compose. Then this weekend I went to see my sweet niece perform in the Nutcracker. I think I cried through 90 percent of the ballet. Hearing that music and seeing all these girls dance and perform.......thinking of how it used to be me on that stage........ya it was hard. Needless to say it's been a pretty emotional weekend.

I went on a walk today with Sam and Jane and we walked past an Elementary School. Seeing all the kids outside playing made me feel like I was just there. When did everything change? It's like one minute you are in school with your friends, having crushes on boys, dancing every day all day, eating bowls of marshmallow matte's, watching Arthur, and then WHAM! You are all grown up and have two kids beside you. Ha! When on earth did that happen? Life seemed so much easier when I thought that the world was centered around me. I honestly thought it was. I'm sure I was such a little snot at times! Haha! I've learned now that this is SO not the case. Life is not about me anymore. I'm not supposed to be dancing all day and composing constantly. Even though I miss it more then I could ever say, it's just not what I should be focused on anymore. I feel like I really had my time to shine and I'll be forever grateful for that, but now it is my time to make sure Sam and Jane have a life where they can shine :) 

I hope that they can have as magical as a childhood that I had. I hope I can give them all the self confidence that my mom gave me and that they will feel special at something, anything! I hope they have a passion for something like I had with ballet. I know you are probably sitting here thinking, "Why can't you just do both? Go dance and go be a mom! You can have it all!" The truth is that I don't want that now. It's different. It will never be the same and that's ok because I have so many amazing memories! Do I wish I could go back in time and be back in that place where dancing was effortless and magical? Yes! Heck yes!!!! But I know that it's in the past now and I need to be grateful for it and cherish it, but move forward and try to get good at something else. Something new........maybe something like being a mom! I have NO IDEA what I am doing and even though I get down and miss the "good old days" at times, I have never been happier or more blessed then I am now. Not being focused on myself is so wonderful and so refreshing. So even though I don't feel special or talented anymore I know that this is where I'm supposed to be and this is what I'm supposed to be doing........staying home eating marshmallow matte's and watching Arthur with my sweet Sam and listening to Swan Lake and making Jane's cute little legs dance to the four swans...................hmmmmmm................I guess life really hasn't changed all that much ;)

Fall!

This fall has been a fun and busy one! I'm so glad we've been able to have so many fun experiences together as a family. Here are some pics of what we've been up to :)

Picking out pumpkins at the pumpkin patch! 

 

                                                Sam really liked the "ghost" pumpkins!

                                                                    Jane had fun too!

                       Sam has been pretty antisocial so we've had lots of fun staying at home ;)

                                                               Trip to Gardner Village!

                                                         Throwing rocks into the pond

  We told Sam he could pick out any treat he wanted and he chose an apple beer....he's definitely his daddy's son!

                                                         Jane got a fuzzy new coat!

                                                             The Scarecrow Festival! 

                                                           Sam loved riding the train!!!

                                                                         Happy Jane :)

                                                                    Sleepy Jane :)

 Hiked to a fun river.......I lost Sam 3 times on this excursion......needless to say we are NOT going back, BUT we had a fun time when we were all together ;)

                      Me trying to wink and drink at the same time........still lovin my orange bubbles ;)

                                  Love my boys when they are zoned out on their devices.......

                                                          Jane playing in the bumbo!

                                           My favorite part of fall...........Carmel apples!!!

                             Halloween!!! A cat and mouse went trick or treating at daddy's work!

 This silly black cat didn't want to go trick or treating so we played at Grandma and Grandpa's house instead ;)

                                                    Cutest little mouse in the world!

                                                           Aunt Shelly and baby Jane!

                             I LOVE when Sam does this and talks to baby Jane........so sweet!

                                                      She sure does love her big brother!

                                        Accidentally wore the same outfit as Sam.......awkward!

                                                        Sam working hard in the yard!

               Sam went to the Dentist for the first time and was so brave! We were so proud!

                          No cavities!!! (no cavities for mommy and daddy either.......nailed it!)

                                                Picking his prize out of the prize drawer :)

                              Speaking of teeth, it's a good thing Jane doesn't have any ;)

 Kevin sailing!!! Check out that hottie ;) No one should be able to make a life jacket look that good!

 Kevin went to San Fran to a conference for work and crushed his presentation......wish we could have gone with him! So proud of you Kevbev!!!





Oh and we got family pictures taken and they turned out so cute! We are giving them away as Christmas presents so I can't show them all, but here are just a few that we took :) 

 

                                        Cute huh?!? ;) Happy Fall and Happy Holidays!!!!!!!!

Sam's Birthday!

We had a fun time celebrating Sam's birthday this year. He turned 3! Can't believe it! We spent the weekend at the Davis family cabin and and when we got home we had a big surprise for him. We decided to turn part of the basement into a playroom for Sam. Kevin and I stayed up past midnight putting it together before we left so that when we got home from the cabin (on his bday) it would all be ready and waiting for him :) I wish you could have all seen his face. He was SO excited! He couldn't believe it was all for him! It was a very special moment for all of us :) 

That night we had cake and ice cream with the Davis family and it was a blast! I took tons of pictures so I'll let them do the talking ;)

              At the cabin! I like this pic because it looks like Sam is saying, "Go America!"

                                                     Taking a walk down by the river

                                                             King of the Mountain!

                                      Jane eating her socks.......it's her new favorite thing :)

                                   Sam slept on the top bunk! Look how excited he is! haha ;)

 Steven and Siena......love them! This picture was taken right at the moment when Siena zinged Steven and totally put him in his place. Never knew how feisty she can be ;) hehe!

 I tried to take a cute pic of them lying on the bed together and believe it or not, this was the best one........

                                                            Still not very cute.....lol ;)

                                                               Before picture............

                                                                     After!!!!!!!!!!

                                                              Soooooooo happy!!!

                                                            Opening his presents :)

                                                 Having fun with his cool new helicopter

                                                        Random, but cute, pic of Jane :)

 Sam loves to build towers and show them off by saying, "See!" and gesturing with his hand....so funny!!!!

 

                                                               Blowing out his candle!

                                        Papa D with Great Grandpa and Grandma Davis

                                                       The wonderful Scott and Sheri :)

 Sam eating two pieces of cake (because it is his birthday and he can do whatever he wants!)

                                                         Opening more presents!

                 I love how excited my dad looks here! He's on the edge of his seat! bahahahahaha!!!

                                          Sam's favorite present of the night......a flashlight!

                                                        Baby Jane enjoying the party :)

                                                              Sam's birthday cake! 

                  The next morning after his big day we both ate cake for breakfast.......delicious!

           Happy Birthday Sam! We sure do love you and your big smiley happy face!!!!!!!!!!!